Allergic to pregnancy

I'm back ..not for long but I figured it was way past due for a blog. Here's my update on having "24/7 pregnancy sickness" Yeaaaa not any better. Here we go again is all I can think. I have never had allergies untill the other day the doctor finally gave up on trying to cure me and diagnosed me as allergic to pregnancy. I laughed at first I thought he was joking...nope it's for real. Have you ever heard of such a thing? So my wonderful mother in law is coming to pick up miss Ava, myself and baby. It is going to be so tough on Don and I. I think we'll be away from him for like 2 weeks and a HALF. Yes the half counts. The longest we have been apart since being together was maybe a week...it was brutal. But now Ava is in the mix. That is a reallllly long time for her to be away from her Da-Da. I mean she cries and watches the door even if he is an hour late in the evenings coming home from work. Oh plus my baby girl walked for the first time this week! She is so smart. Only 8months old people. So I would hate for her to Da-Da while away from him....Oh the stress. Well I know it is only temporary and needed. I don't know what I would do without the help we've received from friends and family. I have gone through madness at the hospital in for a week, out and back in again yesterday. I have a pic-line in my arm connecting into my chest. IT WAS PAINFULL. But my home nurse is wonderful. So anyways I'm tired of talking about it..and just tired of it all period. Tommorow we leave for Ohio. Pray for a safe trip !! Ps. Mandie sorry no hospital pictures or anything girl you wouldn't believe the knots that formed in my hair. Yes mine! I wasn't able to brush my hair for days and now the problem is fixed thank God..but the pics aren't pretty!

story of my life.

Well I now am back to what I went through with my first pregnancy...I have "morning sickness" to the extreme. Except it last past morning, past the afternoon and all night long..The feeling never goes away. If I sit, stand walk and sometimes talk I throw-up sorry for the details...Layin down is the only way to keep me from constantely gaggin and throwing up..what little I even have to. I basically am living off of water and saltene crackers..and the occasional ginger-ale. Today Don made me eat a little toast..which I've kept down thus far...cross my fingers and knocking on wood UUGH!! I hate being this sick I don't understand why nothing has been invented to make this go away. My last pregnancy got me so bad I was in and out of the hospital constantely needing re-hydrated and drugs...for 5 1/2 months!! (yes the half counts when your this ill!)

So here's my question to all of you..Any morning sickness remedies you can share with me?? DO THE LOLLIES ACTAULLY WORK? I just sent Don out searching for them!

Some call me crazy...

I have to name 7 random/strange facts about myself!
Here we go!
1. I can pick up just about anything with my toes. They're my second pair of hands.

2. I hate Eggs!! BUT the wierd thing here is that I will only eat them at one place and ONE way= crackle barrel over hard! And I hate the smell in your home after you cook them at home. Eww.


3. I have never broken a bone. Knockin hard on wood!!

4. I have a wierd fear of someone breaking into our home in the middle of night or some tragic event. I always plan an exscape route and defense for every situation haha I know it's crazy.

5. I hated cartoons for the most part when I was a little girl. Dislikes included: barney, muppets, lamb chop, ninja turtles, and anything from looney tunes. I liked the random ones punky bruster, strawberry shortcake, and the barbie looking rockstars the lead blonde had a big star over her eye...I forget the name but loved it. I did sneak watching days of our lives with my step mom though. haha.

6. I saved my sisters life once when we were younger. She had drowned pretty much. She was 2 I was 7. It was intense and I can't believe I had done something so amazing...I think God was with me. It still gives me chills and my family was forever grateful. Shes my baby :)

7. I had a dream when I was younger not to be a doctor or a singer or the President (that'd be something)... but to be a mommy :)
And now I am I just can't believe where my life has directed in these past few years..We want 5 or 6 is that a wierd thing? Everyone I tell thinks we're crazy...Except Holly haha. At least someones on the same page!

Bun in the Oven.

Today was a glorious day! Donny and I found out we are expecting our second bundle of joy. I am so happy and just speachless. Unexpected again..but we are thanking Jesus for our suprise!!!

Time to vent. Positively.

Life is wonderful right now. Sure, there are things that when I think about them I get a little overwhelmed, but for the most part...I’m so extremely happy.

I feel like we have gotten to know one another alot better in these past couple weeks and it's time I share some of my deepest darkest secrets with you all..well as my mother or closest family would know I am (was) a disaster. I hated cleaning and my floor was covered in clothes, regardless of my gigantic closet space that I loved and couldn't have lived without. I cluttered, and would probley take an entire day/night to clean my room about once a month. But as of late I have found a new appreciation for cleaning. I'm not sure if it was really by choice, my eyes no my gag reflexes couldn't take how discusting it is living with a man. I mean honestly toothpaste in the sink..dirty socks on the floor (and I mean Dirty.) I could go on and on. He believes in "soking" a dish still filled with whatever meal ..just fill it with water and that makes it ready in a few days to clean he says. Haha Ok ok this is postive venting still. I am laughing. But I never really was all that messy I think back and I lovedddd a clean room and making my bed ahhhh the feeling ..lighting a candle in a clean room even better. But I was able -aloud to be messy and had way too many items of clothing..I had an attachment problem haha. But now..now things are looking up. I mean I clean constently ..clorox disinfectant wipes have become my partner in crime. I literally wipe everything with them all day long. I buy them in bulk at sam's even and that's alot. haha...

Ok otherwise what's going on with me? Well I am living life one day at a time...taking time to smell the flowers. Reading an amazing novel called love and respect. I promise you ANY married couple needs to read this it's wonderful. So I think I've said enough about that you get the point it's good. ..

This is going to be a lil' off the cuff-I'm in a strange mood today-
I just simply feel like resiting my thoughts out loud.

I need highlights. No I want highlights.
I am very emotional today...and I've been soo extra hungry.
Tip: When feeling emotional:hungry don't watch sex and the city movie with no girlfriends around to laugh with you --it turns into tears.
Man give me a good chick-flick anyday.
I'm still hungry.
Mandie's hair looks so different long..
I miss my friends.
I wonder if that's Donny or Ava snorring?
All day I just wanted fazoli's but there is NO stupid fazoli's in FLORIDA! UGG. The stress.
My complaints are so petty..but I make myself laugh..
I haven't laughed like really laughed in a really long time.
Makes me think of :"When something is really funny"-Miranda
There really is nothing that compares to find TRUE honest complete through-n-through good friends..man I am blessed to have found one. And to know how wonderful it is to recieve so I can continue offering..


I can wait for my mother in law to get here in one more day..
Ok ok well emotional hungry me is going to call it a night..I'll write when I don't have writers block I guess..all my random thoughts were just killing some space.

Oh and ONE more this ones exciting! Today a lady (customer ) came into the salon with a box and a huge XXL sized duffle only to reveal Designer purses!! I couldn't help but to casually walk by like 5 times..pretending I was doing something ya know keeping busy. Ok Ok I really didn't want to look desperate..It's just been a very long time since I have seen them let alone baught a purse for myself. And lets be honest I was a hip purse girl back in my day..shoes and purses..no heels and purses were my thing. Now my closet has over 20 pairs of gorgeous heels..never getting worn and my purse is Ava's diaper bag lets be honest. hehe...Oh motherhood...

Content.

Hello again..I'm exhausted but very happy. Things have gotten alot better. And we are moving on with our lives.. Let's see what's new with us? Well, I got a job at a local salon during the week. And I am so blessed to have found it! I love it. I really enjoy everyone there too! It is perfect for me. slkjfsis'aso-eoq932uhnjkhmrfdui <----------- that's Ava I'll get back to this sometime soon she is on my lap and not bein so patient. Untill next time-

Intervention

So I have been struck with the most difficult weekend of my life. It has been emotionally draining and physically I look it, (can I just live in the shower and hide?) Oh how I love showers..Anyways Don and I were tempted both took the apple ..and now we are in intervention and learning marriage basics all over again. Trust, compassion, support, respect...I know this may not make sense but take it how you will and relate to your relationships in your life.

NEVER think it's too late to remind yourselves of the "basics".

NEVER forget God is number 1 and running the show.

Never forget no matter how hurt you are, or how upset you can not take back words once they're out they're out. I believe God was right here with me when I lifted my hands and prayed begging him for advice and guidence...He held me, he nurtured me like a security blanket..I couldn't let go. I still can't and don't want this attactment to go away. Long story short- Don and I have an amazing support team. And marriage is not always going to be easy, just like anything in life you must work through it and be determined to get what you want. I will always want Donny my eyes are on him and he is my prize. Tommorow I am picking up my wonderful father in law from the airport once filled in on our circumstances he, my mother in law and pastor back home all checked into flights for TONIGHT! I can't describe the amount of love and friendship I felt at that moment..Do to everyone having lives and the economy unfortanetly only one could come out but he is goin to stay a few days and have an intervention for life! with us he says haha- So please keep us in your prayers, although everything is much better now you never know where life will take you along the long road of marriage.. We are still young and have a very very long road in front of us, I think it's a dirt road to be exact ..haha but I will walk the entire way slow and steady -side by side- hand in hand with my love of my life.

Always and Forever.

Dear heavenly Father, I pray this prayer to you Lord to forgive me for living my way. I have sinned and have lost count. I'm giving myself back to you Lord, my life back to you Father God - I surrender to you. Lord be with Donny and I please. I ask for your guidence, your will be done and most of all your love. I can't do it with out you. Walk with me through this tough, amazing scarey and wonderful journey we know as life. Mend my marriage Lord and broken spirits. I give my all to you , I love you, thankyou Lord lead our way- In your Holy Sons name Amen.